I really feel like I am completely ignored by everyone in my life. I keep trying to reach out and no one is there to take my hand. I feel so alone.
I am not really sure what to do anymore. Part of me just wants to retreat from the world completely. The other part of me wants to keep trying even though I keep being pushed to the side.
I am really struggling with:
- Chris's store is closing which means he is losing his job
- I already bring in the majority of the funds and with this addition I do not know what I am going to do.
- I put all my blogs on hold and my start of business off.
and honestly there is so much more.
I am just so tired. Goddess help me find strength because right now I feel broken in a million pieces held together with pieces of chewing gum.
Monday, January 16, 2012
Monday, January 9, 2012
News Flash
Good evening. I have some bad news for all of you. Sadly this blog is on hiatus until at least the summer. This is due to economic upheavals and a move in my life and it is at this point in time impossible to keep up. Please stay tuned here for any breaking news. Thank you for reading and hopefully will be back up and running soon.
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Trying
try
[trahy] verb, tried, try·ing, noun, plural tries.
verb (used with object)
1. to attempt to do or accomplish
2. to test the effect or result of
3. to endeavor to evaluate by experiment or experience
4. to test the quality, value, fitness, accuracy, etc., of
5. Law. to examine and determine judicially, as a cause; determine judicially the guilt or innocence of (a person).
Such a simple word with so many meanings. This for me lately is definitely a state of being. Everything is about me trying.
Most importantly trying not to fail.
This is probably the hardest thing for me because I am so good at it. I haven't succeeded at anything since high school which really hurts.
I try so hard at everything all the time. This doesn't seem to change a thing. I always end up back where I was or worse off than I was before.
Yet I keep getting told to hop back up on the horse and smile.
How many times should a person do that?
How many times can a person do that without breaking?
How many times can I get criticized for not being able?
I just want to succeed and be happy is that too much to ask for?
1. to attempt to do or accomplish
2. to test the effect or result of
3. to endeavor to evaluate by experiment or experience
4. to test the quality, value, fitness, accuracy, etc., of
5. Law. to examine and determine judicially, as a cause; determine judicially the guilt or innocence of (a person).
Such a simple word with so many meanings. This for me lately is definitely a state of being. Everything is about me trying.
Most importantly trying not to fail.
This is probably the hardest thing for me because I am so good at it. I haven't succeeded at anything since high school which really hurts.
I try so hard at everything all the time. This doesn't seem to change a thing. I always end up back where I was or worse off than I was before.
Yet I keep getting told to hop back up on the horse and smile.
How many times should a person do that?
How many times can a person do that without breaking?
How many times can I get criticized for not being able?
I just want to succeed and be happy is that too much to ask for?
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